My God Fairies.....

" Ï ßëlïëvë ïñ äñgël§,Thë kïñd thät hëävëñ §ëñd§,Ï äm
ßÿ äñgël§,ßüt Ï ©äll thëm f®ïëñd§. "

We used to hear in our childhood that god appoint a god fairy to child which would help them guide them though the hardships of life. That is the most precious gift that one receives from GOD…. Today I understood what this fairy tale actually meant. I think they refer the people we meet in our entire lifetime. The people we get influenced from the people who help us during our hardships and encourage us to proceed further in life. These are the people who nourishes, acuminate, burnish our qualities and try to amputate our bad habits. They actually bring the best in us and help us to be a better person in life. … for me they are my friends. They are the one who were and would be there during each and every decision I make. Till they are with me I m sure I wouldn’t make any mistake which I would regret my entire life. I am proud that I m surrounded by such kind of people and know would never walk on the wrong track till they are around. So for me my god fairies are my friends… just love them….

CHILD LABOUR

Ever visited restaurants, dhabas, and other small-scale shops where small children working to meet their ends meet.

Recently I read an article regarding child labour. In that a NGO released few children which were locked in an room where melting of gold and other things take place for making different gold jewellary. The fumes coming out are dangerous for our lungs. children work, live, eat and sleep in that fumes. They are locked in that room. They receive no fresh air as that place is devoid of any windows and ventilators. Isn’t there is a law that children below the age of 18 yrs are not allowed to work. Then why do people employ them just because they are cheap labour. Here the children were not even given any wages are it was a training (according to the owner) so they were only given food and space to live nothing else. (the children were imported from kolkatta )

Is it fair I know they do it to earn some money so that they and their family can have some food to eat. But isn’t it a crime employing them and treating them harshly. Ever witnessed the way they treat them???? Some would say that they work because they don’t want their mom to work. But isn’t it unfair for them that the age of going to school and building a nice future for themselves they indulge into all this jobs and play with their future. Is it right?
Not only they are ruining their career but also their health the people working in the cracker industry where they are to make crackers using the gunpowder the smell the fumes degrade their lungs and affect their respiratory track. The fumes they inhale are dangerous and can also lead to death.

MY FRIENDS

Today I just wanted you to introduce to my friends….my assets my treasures.
Well I have loads of friends but writing about everyone is quite a difficult task.. but I am sorry if I miss someone..

Starting from my school friends as we have spent 14 yrs together. So they constitute an important part of my life….

Adti taneja : she is the baby of our group. Cute loving caring sweet innocent childish naughty yet mature at heart. Know when to have fun and when to act as an mature responsible and understanding person. She love to help everyone and anyone. You would rarely hear a “No” from her. Always there to help you, guide you in what ever you do. She with parul is a total prankster and unfortunately I m always the victim of their stupid pranks. She is someone who you can rely on, you know she would be there at your doorstep at your one phone call… she have always been there with me and I know she would be there with me always.. love you adi….

Ritika : ritika or reetika beyen as I call her.. she is the Ms Perfect of our group. The genius, the Arya bhatta of our group. She is really good with maths… she is practical, hardworking and a amazing personality.. with her I have this telepathy thing. Don’t know how she knows me so well. If I don’t talk to her, don’t tell her then also she knows when I need her the most. Don’t know how it happens but it happens not once not twice but always .. i hope I could be of any help to you.. she is someone who always agree with all my plans and I know no matter who all is there with me atleast she is someone whom I cant count upon with constant support though ideas. Out horrible ideas… always wanted to do something different.. lets c where we end up…

Parul: she is the Ms thinker. She thinks a lot beta thoda kum socho zada sochne se kuch hoga nahi.. enjoy life as it comes. Enjoy every bit of it. I know your defination of fun is little different from all and we all respect that… but sometimes buddy we miss you a lot. Neways we are always there to support you in what ever you do. And ya I m still waiting for my cards and cake jo abhi tak mila nahi hai mujhe .. hehehhehehe all the best in what ever you do…

Aditi kumar : tashni, anar kali, chatori… that are the names associated with her. She is a sweet and cute friends. Her sugar coated voice. She has a smile, which attracts everyone and drags them towards her. She has a mascot, which drags people towards her. A total altruistic.

Neha Aggarwal: she someone who seems as if suffering from so much pain. Itne dukh hain iski zindagi mein... It only seems like that, actually its not there. Neha dear smile please.. keep smiling that is the only thing I ask from you . If u smile then most of your problems would be solved. And if there are still then dear I m there always.. so keep that smile of urs intact on your face.. J

Suruchi: she is the artist of the group. Great at drawing, have a great voice and sings pretty well. A mature girl. know what to do at different situations. She has always been there with us whenever we need her. Always there to help you no matter what happens. She would compromise her things for us. Always giving…in what ever way she could….suruchi I remember my biology practicals.. thanks a lot for ur drawing I would have been screwed during the exam time thanks a lot .

Sheetal : cool and calm as her know always. Have a smile intact on her face . She is someone who overcome her problems with a smile on her face. That is the best thing about her and I seriously feel we should all learn that from her.

We all think we are different and we all really want to make a difference in this world. By ding something different from others. not following the conventional ideas. I hope we all succeed in whatever we do. I know we have the potential to make it big and would really fulfill our dreams together. All the best guys.. and do remember all ur promises…

Hi…
I was having my holidays so I just wanted to utilize it to the fullest…. Many of my friends gave me suggestions regarding the things I could do Today I enrolled myself for French classes. I always wanted to learn a foreign language. As French is the second most spoken language so I decided to learn French not as the professional degree just as a hobby, to add something in my resume. My classes are starting from 2nd june and I m really looking forward to it.

Yesterday I attend a program of this special organization world carp (W_Carp), it’s a part of universal peace federation. It is an NGO. It was an good experience. these people work for the betterment for the others. Their motive is to sacrifice your needs for the betterment of the society. They believe in overall development of the world instead of the development of oneself. I really enjoyed their program and would love to join it. They conduct different workshops in school where they provide moral education and training to the students and are involved in many other activities.

DREAMZZZZZZ

Well dreams were never a pleasant experience for me… people say they are mere reflection of things going inside ur head.. I usual don’t remember my dreams. But sometimes i.e. very rarely but I remember the dream I had on the previous night. Yesterday don’t know why but I lived all my fears in my dream. It was the first time that I saw 4 dreams at a time and woke up every time one ends. Woke up with a fear on my mind really looking for someone near me but couldn’t find some one. Well there was nothing scary in them, not a nightmare but for me it was worst. I could see all my fears coming alive in front of me loving like a movie and I being the only spectator. I want to talk to someone about them but couldn’t…. don’t know whether they would understand.

Their eyes says it all......

The most common thing that come across you standing on the traffic lights waiting for the light to turn green are the children begging selling books magazines dusters flowers , people begging, cleaning cars etc.

Theirs eyes expresses something. They give us the brief view about their life. When we are busy sleeping in our air conditioned room these people are working in order to meet their two ends. We keep saying its hot outside and prefer to stay at home away from the sun while these people work in the burning sun.

I once talk to a kid selling some books, some novels. It drew my interest as it had a book I was looking for but couldn’t find it. I happened to ask him about other books that I needed. It was raining heavily that day we were in a hurry to leave that place but he was eager to sell those books to us. He told us to wait while he would call his other mates which may have the book I wanted. He was not educated and could really understand the names of the book I was talking about but I was really impressed by the way they have learned the names of some books he recognizes books by the picture made on there front page.

While his mates was coming he kept showing me other books that he had… in between he happened to tell me the place from he buy books… that place was pretty far from the place he was selling them I asked him that why do u sell them here instead of selling them near to that place as it would be easy for him to commute he replied that we have been allotted this place this to sell. I asked him then I would have been very difficult for him to travel so much.. he told me ya I go there around five in the morning to buy books and then sell them here..

After buying all the books ad paying the respective amount he told me that didi tell the books you want and I would get them for u. After selling those books he went under the bridge as it was raining heavily and started talking among his friends. The look on his face really touched my heart. He was happy as he must have earned the days living and that emotion of his really took my heart away. It made me realize that our small deed can have such an impact on others. Our small deed can bring smile on someone’s face for whom it really means a lot. Well I never visited that place again but whenever I think about it something really changes inside.

One’s such incident happened on the railway station, we were going to my cousins marriage. We were supposed to board our train from New Delhi railway station. As it was my first cousins marriage so we happened to have lot of luggage we hired a collie for carrying the load. My dad starting negotiating the price for carry that luggage but I told mom not to do that, I felt we four people could not carry that much luggage but this person is going to carry it (everything 2 suitcases bags and other things) all by himself and the money he would get is only 50 bugs. (it may sound too much for some) but I thought that he deserved it or may be little more wouldn’t hurt. I told my mom not to bargain and told her my ideology she just told me “yahan aisa hi hota hai”.. and made me quite.. and I kept thinking was it fine… he carrying so much load then also getting so little amount.

Both these events and many more left an impact on heart…. And just keep thinking about them when see them on the traffic lights..

I support people who work.. they earn their living not the one’s who beg. When they are physically fit so why not work instead of begging. People also take due advantage of this one’s my friends came across a lady who was using her pregnancy for begging money. She said that she does have enough money to go to a hospital. She happens to give her some money as that was pretty genuine (according to her) but when she saw that same lady begging again on the same road some other day then that really made her angry she told her why are u using such a thing to beg that was really mean of you…well that didn’t matter to her she just completely ignored her and went forward and from that day my friend decided never to entertain such people.

I don’t say everyone are good or they have a genuine problem but looking at some you could really make out. As I said their eyes says it all…

Night time --- my time

Whenever I hear the word “night” my fills with calmness.. coolness….it is the best feeling one could ever experience.. somebody truly said "night is the best time of the day". Night time is actually ur time. You are free to do wht u feel like….wht ur heart tell u to do….u are like a free bird flying up high in the sky ……

Night hold different meanings for everyone..
Some one like to spend a nice and quite evening with their family while some one loves to spend a romantic evening with their love.. some people get lost in their dream world and just build dreams for themselves and for the people around them and then see a dream to fulfill them…..some people get lost in the sound of music and spend a personal time while reading a book or while thinking abt the different happenings of the day….

For me night is a very spl time of the day.. wht attracts me abt night is its ambience mysterious and dark nature.. It makes me come alive(the real me)….. I just love spend the night on the terrace all by my self looking at the sky for hours and hours and solving the mysteries of life… gazing up at the stars and figuring out different constellations… its something really amazing… when I m up their I m completely lost in my own world It really doesn’t matter wht is happening around me.. I just get lost in my dreams. ,my expectations and myself.. the little kid inside me actually come alive and start imagining things which would sounds absurd right now but at that time everything made sense.

today i was up again on the terrace. barefoot this time.. it rained in the evening and therefore the whether was awsome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i open my hairs in order to feel the cold breeze rushing through them.. it totally took me away with it..... listening to slow romantic songs.... looking at the stars high up in the sky and wishing even u could touch them once... wishing luck and love for ur loved one's, talking to moon and stars as if are listening to every bit of it.... it was simply awsome.... everyone out there was enjoying every part of it.. there were people walking on the roads.... talking to someone on the phone lost in their own thoughts.... it was simply amazingggg...

yesterday looking at the moon made me sad. An air of betrayal, dishonesty, faithlessness, perfidiousness darkness filled my heart. Yesterday it made me thing is there anything in this world which I can say is mine. Is there any person in this world where I can confide every feeling I go through without thinking abt anything, is there a person who would be there with me always, the answer I got was that this world is all superficial

I was talking to one friend who was very frustrated by this selfish nature of man. She was pretty upset by the thought that everyone out here are selfish. They would only talk to you if hey have some work and when the work is done then “who are you what did u do to me” (our sst teacher used to quote this for the britishers ). This fills my heart with regret, pain suffering. Yesterday I understood the meaning of real friendship. I am glad that I have a bunch of friends who love each other unconditionally who would always be at your door step when ever you need them no matter where they are. (Thanks a lot you guys. Cheers to our friendship and remember we would always be together and ya don’t forget our trip to different places of the world our pact our agreement and we would sure achieve it one day….)

It made be realize that we should respect and cherish the love we are getting instead of running after something which we don’t have or we cant have. Enjoy the things we have, instead of running after something that does not exist. There is so much love around you which u neglecting in order to search for some thing else. It may not be in the form u wanted but it do exist

Can development and environment go hand in hand?

In this fast moving world where industrialization is prime importances for a country, can one really think about the environment? Today deforestation is taking place in order to build huge industries, factories companies etc. well building a factory is not the end. A factory cannot work with employees so employees are employed which mean towns, roads railways houses drainage system etc have to be built in order to fulfill their basic necessities which means cutting of more trees. Everyone knows trees are very important for us as it is the major source for our life supporting system i.e. oxygen. Not only that they help in other ecological process like maintaining climate on Earth, providing a natural habitat for animals and help in providing food for us. They are of prime importance to us but then also we are demolishing it day by day. Well I know industries are also important for as it provide with employment, goods, social and economic stability so even that could not be overlooked.

So what should be the cure for this prob. well environmentalist advised us to use the renewable or reusable sources of energy like solar, hydal, thermal, nuclear and less use of the conventional or the non renewable sources of energy. But we want to grow fast as today it is the world of competition where people, country are competing against each other. So for that they uses the resources which could provide them with more in less time. By looking at the requirement of today’s world could these renewable sources of energy provide u enough energy. The rate at which the energy is generated from these resources are less and they have their own limitations. Like the solar energy cannot be used during the night time and the nuclear energy suffer a problem during the disposal of the waste material as the harmful radiations are generated by them which cause mutations in the body and can lead to many cancers and other harmful effects on the other metabolism of the body . The solutions for the above problems are being searched by the scientist, they have made some progress regarding these topics like solar cells are being devised which can store energy during the day time and then can utilize them during the night time but even they are not that dependable. And techniques are being developed in order to reduce nuclear pollution.

Recently according to an article where UN apex body have asked every country to reduces their coal and petroleum combustion as the level of CO2 in the atmosphere is increasing alarmingly rate which has then increased global warming which in turn can increase the climate of the earth and can lead to many devastating effects. They advised the country to use less of coal n petroleum and more of renewable sources of energy. CNG that is being used in the automobiles have the major drawback that it cannot be used at high temperature if the temperature exceeded the limited then the cylinder would burst so wont it create problem while driving and that also in Delhi where the temperature is sooooooo high But can solar n hydal energy can provide as much as energy provided my them it as also advised to increase the forest cover in the country and advised the developed country to use less of technology… which would effect their development.. so .. one could either think about development or about nature.

Cancerous Cells

i always had a keen interest in cancer inducing cells. Their ordinary and different nature.. what makes them different from other cells ? why is that they keep on dividing... so jst trying to study that....

Cancer refers to any one of a large number of diseases characterized by the development of abnormal cells i.e. cancerous cells, which divide uncontrollably and have the ability to infiltrate and destroy normal body tissue. It is an uncontrolled division of abnormal cells it means unrestricted divisions of cells.

Cancer cells are very similar to cells of the organism from which they originated and have similar (but not identical) DNA and RNA. This is the reason why they are not very often detected by the immune system. A cell has to pass through various stages of the cell cycle. These are the cells, which never enter in the G0 phase during the life cycle.
It is now known that a number of genes and their products are required in the cell cycle. A group of enzymes called protein kinases and other protein called cyclins, control progression of cells through the cell cycle. A mutation in the genes controlling these enzymes and protein could disrupt the cell cycle in such a way that control over the cell cycle is lost. This would lad to rapid proliferation of cells and hence cancer.

Cancerous (malignant) cells invade and damage surrounding tissue. Cancerous cells metastasize to distant parts of the body, causing secondary tumors. Metastasis describes when cancer spreads from the organ where it began to the different parts of the body. Initially cancer may move only to adjacent areas- into deeper layers of tissue or to nearby lymph nodes. Carcinomas spread to remote sites through the lymph system, the bloodstream, or other fluids. Generally cancer metastasizes in the Lymph Nodes, the Lungs, the Brain, the Bones or the Liver
Whereas normal cells have a limited lifespan controlled by the telomere gene, which signals the end of the cell line, cancer cells contain telomerase, an enzyme that alters the telomere gene and allows the cell to continue to divide. Cancer tissue, growing without limits, competes with normal tissue for nutrients, eventually killing normal cells by nutritional deprivation. Cancerous tissue can also cause secondary effects, in which the expanding malignant growth puts pressure on surrounding tissue or organs or the cancer cells metastasize and invade other organs.

ONCOGENES
Oncogenes are another category of genes, which regulate the cell cycle. Normally they function to promote cell division and are called proto- oncogenes. When they are expressed, these genes promote cell division. But if the proto-oncogenes become permanently switched on, or when certain viruses infect the cell and get integrated into the host genome as provirus. The provirus can switch on the proto-oncogenes such viruses are called tumorigenic viruses. then uncontrolled cell division will occur leading to tumour formation.

Proto-oncogenes are genes which promote cell growth and mitosis, a process of cell division, and tumor suppressor genes discourage cell growth, or temporarily halt cell division in order to carry out DNA repair. Typically, a series of several mutations to these genes are required before a normal cell transforms into a cancer cell. If these genes become permanently inactive or lost through mutations, the control over cell division is lost. Thus, such cells start poliferating in an uncontrolled fashion leading to cancer. Mutations in a tumor suppressor gene called p53 causing a range of cancers like breast, lung, bladder and colon cancer.

TUMORS

Some cells may arise, which do not respond to normal growth mechanism. These cells proliferate in an unregulated manner, and give rise to clones of cells that can expand to a considerable size, this growth is called tumour
Tumors can be benign or malignant:

Benign tumors are not cancer:
Benign tumors are rarely life threatening. Generally, benign tumors can be removed, and they usually do not grow back. Cells from benign tumors do not invade the tissues around them. Cells from benign tumors do not spread to other parts of the body.

Malignant tumors are cancer:
Malignant tumors are generally more serious than benign tumors. They may be life threatening. Malignant tumors often can be removed, but sometimes they grow back. Cells from malignant tumors can invade and damage nearby tissues and organs. Cells from malignant tumors can spread (metastasize) to other parts of the body. Cancer cells spread by breaking away from the original (primary) tumor and entering the bloodstream or lymphatic system. The cells can invade other organs, forming new tumors that damage these organs. The spread of cancer is called metastasis.

Cancer Cells in Culture
Both normal cells and cancer cells can be cultured in vitro in the laboratory. However, they behave quite differently.

Cancer cells may be immortal; that is, proliferate indefinitely in culture.

Normal cells pass through a limited number of cell divisions (70 is about the limit for cells harvested from young animals) before they decline in vigor and die. This is called replicative senescence. It may be caused by their inability to synthesize telomerase

Cancer cells show no contact inhibition. Once the surface of the dish is covered, the cells continue to divide, piling up into mounds.

Normal cells: when placed on a tissue culture dish, they proliferate until the surface of the dish is covered by a single layer of cells just touching each other. Then mitosis ceases. This phenomenon is called contact inhibition.

Cancer cells (and transformed cells) can usually grow on much simpler culture medium.

Normal cells are exceedingly fussy about the nutrients that must be supplied to them in their tissue culture medium.

Cancer cells almost always have an abnormal karyotype with
· abnormal numbers of chromosomes (polyploid or aneuploid)
chromosomes with abnormal structure:
translocations
deletions
duplications
inversions

Normal cells ordinarily have the normal set of chromosomes of the species; that is, have a normal karyotype.

Techniques being used for the treatment of cancer:
· Biologic Therapy
· Bone Marrow Transplants
· Chemotherapy
· Clinical Trials
· Complementary Medicine
· Gene Therapy
· General Treatment Concerns
· Hormone Therapy
· PDT Center
· Proton Therapy
· Radiation Oncology
· Surgical Oncology
· Targeted Therapies
· Vaccine Therapies

Ban on women

Karnataka government is putting a ban on women working after 8… is it fair?

I know the government is doing this in order to reduce the crime against women in the city. But isn’t it unfair for the women... Why women should be penalized from not working after 8. Well this is not a solution, In order to solve the problem you are just removing the problem itself. There would be no women on the roads or in the offices so no crime would happen. So why not stop men from working after 8 there would be no men so there would be no crime. But would they do that?.. No because according to them Men are the sole earning member of the family he is the one which supports a family so he is required to work late in order to earn more for the family… what about gals aren’t they an earning member. In many families only women are the ones who earns so if she wants to work more in order to earn little more for her family so why can’t she do that? It’s their wish …. If they wanna work they can it should be their choice no one should force them to do that.

Well by doing so government is violating the article 14, 16 and 19 of the constitution according to which every one is equal in the eyes of law. No one would be discriminated on the basis of caste creed SEX colour etc.. so by passing this law wouldn’t they violating these laws.????

In an interview taken by a news channel there was mixed kind of few… few people was supporting this as they were like they are just doing it to make the city more safe while some said that it the works demand so they have to work at the night time as well.

In the hotel industry where women constitute almost 50 % of their staff so wont these laws affect their business... It would also effect the employment of the women... Companies where the work permits them to work in the late night shift won’t hire women for that... So it would effect their employment….

Instead of putting it as a compulsory law government should keep it optional that if a women doesn’t want to work after 8 then she shouldn’t be forced to do that by doing that the rights of the women should also be conserved. They could increase security for the women working out late. Many companies have hired private vehicle in order to drop them home safe and sound so that should be encouraged in all such companies. By doing so they won’t be doing any discrimination against women.

WOMEN a peice of entertainment or something more

Yesterday I was going through an article abt the usual rape cases in delhi…
Again a gal was raped in one of the changing rooms in Palika bazaar. (changing room ko bhi nahi choda arent they allowed to chose clothes of their size?????????)Palika bazaar is an underground shopping complex..in middle of C.P. it is a place where u wud find all sort of pirated items .. well I have never been to palika as my friends used to say that its not a nice place.. but I always had this fascination to see that place.. but after reading the article I don’t feel safe to go there...

Men have indulge themselves in crime like eve teasing , rapes…etc.. the no. of rape cases have increased in recent years

But aren’t its unfair for women.. why cant women roam around freely in the city like all the other men.. why they have to be under a stress of getting raped.. or abused by men…. Well the answer people give to these question are that u really cant do anything.. it’s a male dominant society so just take care of yourselves while moving in the city…
Is this the solution for this problem….. even Sheila dixit after administering the rape case said that the laws for the rapist are not that stringent. He cud easily get away with them. No harsh punishments are given to the person, which allow him to commit this crime even more.

although i know that even gals are not wht they call as "dudh ki dhuli" even they attracts peoples attentions andeven they indulge in sexually abusing mem its just that their crime remain un noticed but u can't deny with the fact that the percentage of women indulging in it is far less than from the that of a man.....

Well I wish to study the psychology of a rapist what is that provoke him to do such a thing that could land him up in prison. Is it his desperation for sexual contacts or something else…. cant really say that gal is not desperate for sex. Both are equally involved in it…. But that doesn’t it provoke a gal to go and rape a guy…. Never heard that a gal raping a guy.. so is it desperation that makes him commit such a crime.? Or is that they get bored with having sex with a single person and the fire the heat vanishes between them.. and he is looking for some excitement… well if one looks from a gals point of view even she have sex with the same person so even she should get bored and should start raping men.. but does that happen?.. so why does men only indulge into it?

Earlier there used to be a saying that would u rape ur daughters your sisters ??? well that cnt be used now as there has been cases where a father have sexually abused his own daughters… It is so depressing to hear that a 6 yr old child was raped by his own father.. fathers are there to protect their child from all the mishappening and negativities of his daughter life or to make her life miserable…

Does he think what that goes though after being a victim of his entertainment of his satisfaction. Her complete life turns upside down. She lost control of her life.. she is not only physically hurt but it effect its emotional and mental status… she broke completely from inside…. The criminal know all the aspects pretty well then also he indulge into such a crime why????????????? Just for enjoyment satisfaction.. neglecting all the after effects of it…..

Rain- beautiful form of precipitaion

Delhi received its first shower of the season… it was all over the news paper that the hot and burning delhi would receive rainfall in 2-3 days….. but I never believed that these weather predictions could be true until today… it rained for nearly 15 min but those 15 min really changed the face of delhi’s weather…. .

After such a long time.. I experienced how it feels when small droplets of water falls on one’s face ….. the sound of water droplets falling on the road made my heart wander from one place to another I experienced all the emotions of love satisfaction fulfillment happiness etc.. all at once….my face was filled with a sweet smile...

Everyone was enjoying the first shower of the season.. a kid was riding his bicycle in the middle of the road… without thinking that he could get wet and can catch cold..… small kids were playing in the balcony....putting their hands forward in order to feel the drop of the falling water. Some people were just admiring the beauty of it.. the calmness n coolness rain brings along with itself.. a sweet couple were standing it the balcony and were teasing each other… it felt nice to see them having fun.. the way the gal teased a guy and pulled him towards her…. Pulled him in the rain in order to make him wet…how the guy first protested but then later on he also enjoyed the water falling on him.. it was a lovely experience..

Later that day I went for my evening walk the site was smthing different from the usual.. a cool breeze was blowing which wud blow the leaves of the tree and the sound produced by it.. filled my heart with joy excitement happiness.. and all the feelings one could go through…. It was the first time.. I was happy that I am alone and really understood the meaning of spending with oneself.. this thing gave me time to think abt my life.. where it was heading.. my ambition.. etc etc..

Lately I was feeling a bit depressed lonely dark.. as I have nobody whom I can spend sometime with. I have nobody to talk to.. so my heart was filled with all the dark and depressing emotions.. but after what I felt today.. well it changed me a bit.. it changed my vision towards life.. it changed my ways of admiring things in life…

Me, Myself....

Day starts when the sun rises above the horizon and it ends when it hide itself below the horizon.....days come and go and when u know a whole year has passed by.......

well recently i finished of with my first years university exams.... dont really know how an year passed by..... last year during this time.. we were anxiously waiting for our boards result... with a fear and anxiety in our hearts.. and after the results.. were searching for an appropriate college.... going through the college prospectus.... filling all the forms.. going to different college for making enquiries with frends.. well those days also had their own charms... it was fun roaming in the city with friends... finally i got admission in one of the college.. met new people made new friends.. and really dont knw how a year passed by... hanging out with friends... attending all classes running here and there for notes..... didnt really noticed how these days passed away.... on 30th april my university exams got over and now i am having holidays..

well when we used to be children we used for eagerly wait for our summer vacations and summer vacations for us then means.. visiting relatives places going on school trips with friends.. joining some vocational courses.. it used to be great fun.. but today something have changed we have grown up a little bit inside.. for us friends means the same but the time.. that we used to spend together has decreased.... earlier when we were kids we used to feel that growing up would be fun as we would be free and independent and we would be able to spend more time with each other... but now as we belong to different colleges different courses we really get time to meet each other.. we rarely talk to each other everyone have got busy with there projects exams and day today activities.....

today i am writing after a very long time..... well just couldnt find a better platform to express my feelings.... the things occupying my mind.... i have a whole 3 months in my hand and i really want to utilize it to the fullest.. and dont want to regret later that i had whole 3 moths n i just wasted away like that... they say that doing smthing is useful a person and can indulge oneself in nething and that wud surely pay off in future if not today..... so i was just going through all the options i have which i can do during myhols.. well i really dont knw wht to chose what to do.. hw to utilize my time,..... right now i am just using time.. to read blogs.. novels.. newspaper.. etc.. its fun.. but then also.. a feeling.. a feeling of emptyness lies inside me.. i knw i can do much better than this.. i can utilize my capabilities in more efficient way... and not doing so.. is just making me frustrated irritated.... i have noticed a change in me..... well this can be due to smthing said by a friend of mine.. or just some phase which i m going through well wht it is exactly i really dont knw.. and i just trying to find out.. couldnt find a better way to express so just started writing a blog....dont expect a lot from ths blog.. as i m not a writer i am just writing it as i need some place to vent out wht i m feeling .. wht i am going through.....so just chosed this......